1. |
Introduction
01:24
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2. |
Traffic Jam
03:01
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I woke up
6am
Coughing and choking on things I haven’t said
But I confess that I’ve been dreaming of you
Is it the truth
Cause the truth is that life comes at me fast
It’s like a traffic jam
And I think I’m in an accident
And every time you look at me
I pretend that you won’t see
That every single thing you do
Makes me fall in love with you
Is it real
Cause some people argue that this is just chemical
And I could use some more chemicals
Always more chemicals
To quiet my mind
To damper the desire
To avoid my daily loneliness
Because this is just a traffic jam
And our love is just an accident
And every time you look at me
I pretend that you won’t see
That every single thing you do
Makes me fall in love with you
Words get caught in my throat
Like an accidental overdose
It’s not what we planned for but we’re getting by
Now I’m running late
Like my desire to self mutilated
It’s never quite here but it might catch up sometime
And every time you look at me
I pretend that you won’t see
That every single thing you do
Makes me fall in love with you
I hope I finally realize
That I can see you any time
If I sit and close my eyes
I can see you tonight
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3. |
Why Don't You Hate Me?
05:48
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You’re so this winter
Where I hibernate for warmth
I built a fountain
Instead of a home inside myself
Our plastic insides
That we recycle every day
When we’re fucking strangers
And I hate to see my face
And I don’t hate you
But you should hate me
I played the martyr
Begged you to save me
Your forgiveness
I don’t deserve it
But you think it’s worth it
We just scratched the surface
Here’s the picture
Us in a tiny Photo Booth
You’re in a striped shirt
It hurts so much that I hurt you
The mission district
And you smoking in the rain
Almost said I love you
But I meant you’re my best friend
I’ll never hate you
But you should hate me
At least we admit
We’re both fucking crazy
Your forgiveness
I don’t deserve it
But you think it’s worth it
We just scratched the surface
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4. |
Loose
04:43
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As I sink into this feeling, aware I’m not quite done
My mouth turns dry, my tongue goes numb
Everybody in this room loved me yesterday
But today I still can’t face myself, so everything’s the same
God damn you for loving me
God damn all your help
And God damn the grace of your disposable wealth
I don’t love you, I don’t love me
I don’t love anything
Except the promise that this all will stop
And some day I’ll be free
Today I woke up panicked
freezing and alone
I wish that this hallway
Could ever feel like a home
Then I could die a martyr
I could die a saint
I could build myself a legacy
Out of passionate hate
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5. |
Mambo Number 666
06:16
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It’s less difficult to
Expect a miracle like
Waking up from 8 full hours of sleep
And my scars are fading
From my shoulders and legs
As I reconcile the part
That needs fixing
Now I live for days like these
Something ordinary something more discreet
Every night’s a nightmare
I’m wide awake but still scared
In a losing battle I have in my head
It’s such a disappointment
To regret every moment
I should fight but
I’ll give up instead
Now I live for days like these
Something ordinary something more discreet
They told me be patient
There’s no shame in waiting
It probably won’t get better overnight
I’m in a place to listen
But I crave forgiveness
For the hefty price of all those flashing lights
Now I live for days like these
Something ordinary something more discreet
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6. |
Wild Turkey
04:28
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Off of Virginia
In a one bedroom
400 dollars a month
Empty cabinets
Broken skateboards on the wall
Combo TV/VHS
We’re doing our best
With our limited resources
He comes home drunk
But I’m already wasted
Taking pictures
Taking every ounce of strength
Just to keep it together
Independence
Make me miss my friends back home
I’ve never felt so alone
We’re doing our best
So the neighbors don’t hear screaming
Late this month
And pray it’s not a baby
We’re doing our best
Even when we scare the roaches
We’re safe today
But next year I’ll fucking hate you
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7. |
Killing Whitey
05:34
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8. |
Getting Worse
02:47
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I fall apart every day
Right around 5:30
When I wake up next to you
Inside my head
I don’t even try to explain
What made me this way
But I hate the fact that
It’s only getting worse
I fall apart every day
From the anxiety
Of having to
stand up for myself
I’m fucking sick every day
Of my past mistakes
And I hate the fact that
I’m always in the wrong
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9. |
Dammit (Blink 182)
02:01
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11. |
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I took a good look and watched you walk into the house downtown
Where your entire life is on the floor in stacks
You shut the door and I thought to myself I wish it wasn’t going to end like this
And I told myself not to miss you
But I miss you
Even if it’s only when I think about protecting myself from toxicity
You saw the worst of me
And now you have to leave
I’m afraid for your health
And I’m afraid of myself
But this is how it has to be.
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The New Normal San Jose, California
We are The New Normal. San Jose based, LGBT friendly, anti-racist, anti-fascist, and fucking
exhausted.
We write songs about mental illness, drug addiction, loss, frustration, and dogs with anxiety.
For gigs and booking, email us at thenewnormal.sanjose@gmail.com or slide into our DMs on Twitter/Insta.
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